Archive for May, 2006

Ok, so here’s an update on what’s been going on the past 2 weeks…

Last week at work was the most hectic, crazy, out of control, annoying weeks I’ve ever had at this new job! It drove me crazy. I’m not 100% sure why but I think it had to do with the fact that I had great weekend plans to go to the Grand Canyon and just do the touristy thing up in NorAz (Northern Arizona). Anyway, the shitty week at work was topped off with a uber shitty Friday evening… details follow.

Friday (Cinco de Mayo) was to be a night of fun and friends. I was attending a Kathy Griffin comedy event that evening with some friends… dinner was to be done before the event. Dinner, with friends… I’m greeted by one friend who is very cold and standoffish towards me. I find this to be strange because I don’t have any idea why this person is acting like this towards me. I greet everyone… that greeting is not acknowledged by this one person, that’s when I know the evening is going to be strange. Dinner begins, the normal friend chat happens… except when it comes to this one friend talking/interacting with me. There is a conscious effort on his part to not speak to me, give me eye contact, engage me in any way. Totally freaking strange and uncomfortable. I figure it may just be me, i’ve had a crappy week at work and maybe my brain just is making me imagine things. Dinner ends and we go to the event. In the parking lot of the venue, one of our mutual friends comes up to me, before this other person arrives, and says “What the hell is going on?? Something strange was going on between you two, I could feel it!” That’s when I know it’s not my imagination and that it’s real. The rest of the evening goes by in much the same way, no communication, acknowledgement, etc. Very crappy and petty, in my opinion. Anyway, the evening ends, I go away for the weekend… and then begins a new week of crap…

This week… I have dubbed it the “week of crap” because it is. The week starts on a high note, I went and got myself a cat, and she’s sooo cute (no name yet though). From there on, it goes down hill. I learn from a mutual friend that an invite went out for a basketball game, I was conveniently left off that list. An invite went out for a weekend event, I was also conveniently left off that list. I sent emails to this friend, just normal friend type emails which have been ignored. I catch a summer cold, feel like crap for 2 days. Week continues to be crappy… get a call from my dad telling me that my Grandfather in Flagstaff has literally days left because of kidney failure. Wednesday (midweek) is when I find out about the basketball invite that I was left out of the loop on and that’s all I can really handle. I send an email to said friend asking what is wrong, what have I done, etc. Thursday… I get a response to that email (surprisingly) late in the afternoon. I shouldn’t be so happy considering what is said in the response email, but how could I have known what was going to be in it. The Jist of the email is as follows…

yes, you have pissed me off, multiple times. no, you’re not imagining it, i’m giving you attitude. I don’t feel it’s worth my time or effort to explain what’s wrong because you already know what’s wrong and any time we’ve discussed what’s wrong it’s not stopped from more of what is wrong to happen. I don’t want to discuss it, i’ve become disillusioned in trying to find a solution. Don’t let my crappy attitude towards you effect any of our mutual friends.

I wrote that whole “wrong” thing because I DON’T KNOW WHAT’S WRONG. I wouldn’t’ have asked if I knew! GDit! I also took the “i don’t want to discuss” and the “i don’t feel it’s worth my effort” to mean that the friendship we had is not important enough to him to try and save, which hurts. The last line of the email really put the icing on the cake. Basically, he’s saying that he’s warning me that there will always be the shitty attitude that I experienced on Friday and I’m forewarned. If I cancel on events or back out, i’m not punishing him, i’m punishing our other friends, he is in no way at fault for anything. WTF!?!?

I sent a short email back, saying that I honestly don’t know what is wrong and that’s why I’m asking followed by a statement saying that we’ve been good friends for a long time and i don’t want it to end because of something that can be easily fixed. I’m currently waiting for a response.

In Summary, this week I’ve gotten a new cat, gotten sick, learned my grandpa has days left, and had a very good friend tell me they no longer want to be my friend for reasons unknown to me. I’ve been through the emotional ringer and i’m spent.

So, anyway, that’s what’s been going on in my life, it’s pretty crappy as of late. This weekend had promise but now it looks pretty bleak.